Saturday, January 10, 2015

Lost appeal

Of course I appealed.

I was a member of the union and my rep was a charming gardener from a property elsewhere. He thought I had a very strong case.

The person who heard my appeal was a senior manager from another region. He concluded that making me redundant was utterly ok with him and that was that.

I tried to secure an alternative position within the organisation. I applied for jobs - even attended an interview for one - that then mysteriously vanished. "Sorry, there is no job on offer now, we made an error, we need to restructure." I applied for a job at a countryside property in a neighbouring county. They had to offer me an interview, given I was under notice of redundancy, but I knew it was a long shot right from the off. The manager who would be leading the interview panel was close friends with my nemesis, the Area Manager, and a total twat, to boot. The kind of man who sat on his chair back to front, sociology lecturer style, and said things like "hey guys, why don't we think outside the box?"

Nevertheless, they kept me in that interview for 4 hours. So long we all had to take a toilet break and by the time they showed me out the sun had gone down and I was faced with a long walk back to the carpark in the dark, on icy, un-gritted roads, in my smart, but slippy, interview shoes. It's that kind of visitor care and thoughtfulness that makes this particular organisation so great.

The rejection call I took later that same evening came as no surprise. It was the end of the line as far as I was concerned. I could take my appeal to court, see if external bodies could overturn the decision, but it would be expensive and drawn out. The whole situation had already taken a toll upon my health and happiness and, quite honestly, given the shitty way my employers were behaving did I really want to stay that desperately? Surely I could do better? They might not want my particular brand of fun and feistiness anymore but someone, somewhere would recognise it for the incredibly productive blend it is.

I felt like a wronged lover suddenly having a moment of clarity. I decided to take the experience I'd had in fighting so long and hard for what I thought was right and use it for something that actually mattered. I would say goodbye to the heritage industry, leave the pot pourri and beeswax polish, abandon the precious things in their carefully preserved environments, and turn my attention to helping the living, breathing, right here and now populace instead. I would take the money and run.

Sunday, August 31, 2014


"Don't feel you have to answer straight away," said the General Manager. "Think it over."

Now that I had officially been told my role was redundant the organisation was duty bound to offer me alternative, suitable employment.

I paused while I thought through the best possible phrases with which to respond. It took a while. I decided to seek clarification.

"You're offering me the role of Shop Manager?"


"Which is a grade lower than I'm on now?"


"So I'd be based in the shop, in the courtyard, just opposite the house, which I would no longer be allowed to live in? Watching the staff, volunteers and public coming and going but not being involved with that part of things any more? I'd be pricing the jam and restocking the ice creams?"


"I don't think that is a suitable alternative to my current role."

"I thought you might say that. You could also apply for the position of Visitor Reception Assistant. Or the position of Conservation Assistant."

"Both of which are part time, lower grade positions."


"Besides which, we already have a Visitor Reception Assistant and a Conservation Assistant."

"No, these roles will have to be reapplied for as part of the restructure."

"Those roles are already filled. They belong to the people who have worked them for years. They are good at what they do. I won't take their jobs from them."

"Think about it. Yes, they're lower grade but we would pay you at your current rate for the first year before reverting to the actual rate for that grade."

"But that job is McColleague's. I am not going to take her job. I'll walk first."

So I walked.  I was beginning to discover that I valued people more than I valued things and that perhaps this meant my time spent caring for lovely objects was ending for a reason.

Saturday, August 02, 2014

A Summary

There are many more posts I could write, each going through the next painful part of the leaving process in excruciating detail, but to save everyone any further distress I shall instead condense the events of  2010/11 into a handy table format!

What New Boss Said
My Response
I am here to restructure the county portfolio of properties. You are redundant.
It appears I am the only person to be effected by this county-wide restructure. I will talk to my union rep about this.
Still out on my arse.
It's not personal. It is the role of Visitor Services Manager that is redundant.
So why are the other two Visitor Services Managers at our two sister properties still in post?
Two Visitor Services Manager roles continued at our sister properties.
The tasks you used to perform will now be covered by a new role which is two grades higher than your current one.
Can I apply for that?
Applied for new position.
You were unsuccessful in your application. You didn't quite meet the criteria for a grade 6 employee.
Can I have training so that I meet the criteria of a grade 6 employee? I have been with the organisation for 14 years and am fearsomely bright.
They'd get back to me on that.
We need someone to start in this role immediately. We just don't have time to train you.
But I am already doing all the tasks the role requires!
The new position remained unfilled for a further six months. A colleague on the same grade as myself was given a grade 6 role. But that was different, apparently.
The stress of living in the property is too much for anyone. No one is to live there any more and you and your family must move out.
Can I remain to provide security cover for the house? I'd be happy to pay rent.
Still out on my arse. Another member of staff and his girlfriend moved into the house shortly after I left.
The member of staff and his girlfriend are only in the house as a temporary measure.
I'm not sure I believe a word you say.
Member of staff and his girlfriend remained in the house for a further two years.
I feel bad about this. I will take one of the holiday cottages off the market and you can rent it as a private tenant.
I feel better about this and gratefully accept your offer.
Moved two miles up the road.

Friday, February 21, 2014


"I can't believe he wrote that!"

"What did he say again?"

"Apparently I am negative, I hold the property back and I write offensive articles for the local magazine".

"But he wasn't even in post then!"

"No, but somehow something that happened nearly two years earlier has made its way into my annual review. Hmmmm."

It was that least wonderful time of the year. Those bleak winter closed months, with dead brown trees raking the grey skies with their clattering branches and summons to Personal Development Plan meetings with our respective line managers. This had been the first one since Lovely Boss had retired and I had been called upon to meet with Acting Manager to discuss my performance over the past 12 months and plan for my "personal development". It was quite a big deal, in that the rating you achieved would determine the percentage pay rise you would receive, if at all. You rated yourself, your line manager then gave their rating and the Area Manager would have the final decision as to what your score actually was, regardless of whether they had the slightest clue of what you did or who you were.

This year was particularly important as the newly appointed General Manager would be using these staff appraisals to influence his plans for the properties.

I was, therefore, understandably dismayed at the comments the Acting Manager had put on his review, which bore no resemblance at all to the meeting we'd had.  Since Lovely Boss had gone I'd been the only key rep on site, effectively on duty all day every day, yet instead of a thank you I'd been taken to task for my "negativity" in mentioning that I was tired and would like a day off now and then. Since Lovely Boss had gone there'd been nobody to run our shop, which had always been his "baby", so McColleague and I had voluntarily added this to our duties, kept it open, kept it stocked and made more of a profit from it than ever before and instead of a "well done" it was being put on record that I held the property back! None of it stood up to any sort of scrutiny and I had the facts, figures and feedback to prove it.

As for the article reference I could only guess as to who might have filled in Acting Manager on that one.

I took advice from the union and HR who confirmed that the Personal Development Plan should only cover the preceding 12 months and that objectives must be agreed between both parties. It should be entirely factual, covering results achieved and development needed to meet future objectives.

I asked Acting Manager to remove the offending and inaccurate comments from my review. He refused, claiming he was far too busy to discuss it with me in detail.

I, in return, refused to sign my PDP that year.

"I am doomed, McColleague," I lamented. "I can either sign it and agree that I am a negative nelly who just holds this place back or I can not sign it and look like a troublemaker. There's no way I can come out of this unscathed."

Poor McColleague could only look concerned and bring more tea. We both knew I was right.

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Strings Attached

"I've read your posts on the intranet."

"Have you?"

"Yes, your thoughts on key rep issues are very interesting."

Here was an unexpected development in the evening. But while I was mildly intrigued by what the potential New Manager had to say about my opinions on key rep issues and exactly how he had come across them, I was more intrigued by the unopened bottle of wine on the next table. He, on the other hand, was almost insultingly keen to go and talk to Lovely Warden about biomass boilers. We concluded our enforced getting-to-know-you conversation and moved on to better prospects.  This bizarre evening was the beginning of the end and on some level I knew it. Not that I needed to be particularly gifted with insight or intuition. For a start, the Area Manager was sat opposite me, at the other end of the room, giving me the kind of stare that could put a frost on molten lava. I raised a glass, amiably, and gave him my biggest grin, the kind he'd want to see mounted on a spike outside the gatehouse. His thin lips twitched slightly in response. Could have been a smile, could have been wind.

Then there was the other candidate I chatted to between courses.

"So, what kind of things have you had to do on this three day interview?" I asked.

"Well, there've been group tasks, exercises, role plays."

"Really? What have you had to role play?"

"Oh, you know, difficult situations, dealing with challenging staff issues. We had one about a gardener who was key rep and having problems, for example."

"A gardener?"


"Not a visitor services manager?"


"And what happened in the end? In your role play?"

"I think we had to let him go."

"I see. More wine?"

As far as I was concerned all of this was an elaborate time and money wasting exercise. Our opinions on who was best suited to the role of General Manager at our property would influence the final decision not one jot. I felt sure they would appoint someone as far removed as possible from our troublesome, old school, rule breaking Lovely Boss, and  if that someone could also silence the mouthy bint in the manor house so much the better.

I was utterly unsurprised to discover that the baby faced biomass boiler fan and staff forum intranet lurker had been ultimately successful in his application, since the other candidates had actually spent time talking with me and hadn't already formed their opinions and long term strategy. I'm not saying you could actually see the strings but I am quite sure his long term aims included one day becoming a real boy.

Saturday, March 30, 2013

A comment from the here and now

As I revisit the past many of the emotions I felt at the time resurface. We are now heading towards the last traumatic year of Stately Moans, most of which I spent fighting my inevitable defeat and trying to go on with the show so that the public and volunteers wouldn't suspect I was not 100% happy. 

It was a tough time, for me and my family. Blogging about it all is cathartic yet not without pain. On the plus side, the benefit of having waited a couple of years before writing it down is that I can reassure anyone reading this that everything worked out in the end. I found new paths to explore, ones that mean I am not currently freezing my bits off on a snowbound estate and unheated house while parents drag disinterested kids round a substandard Easter trail. No. I have a four day weekend, all the chocolate I can eat and the freedom to boot uninvited guests out of my garden. I can just go out, on a whim, whenever I like. Overnight if I choose! As it turned out there are many advantages to leaving the cult of conservation charity work. I took a bit of deprogramming but think I'm pretty much recovered now.

Saturday, March 23, 2013

(Nursery) Crime and Punishment

Those of you who have read my ramblings for some time will be familiar with the traumatic trail known as the Nursery Rhyme Walk. I had long harboured dark fantasies of taking a blowtorch to those badly painted and peeling boards featuring warped monstrosities from the Salvador Dali school of children's decor.

With the departure of Old Boss and the arrival of Acting Manager a window of opportunity had presented itself, under the guise of  change and improving the visitor experience. My proposal went somewhat as follows:

"Can we rework the existing walk and turn it into a nature trail?"

"There's nothing in the budget for a new trail."

"Not a problem, what I have in mind won't cost a thing."

"All right then."

A few days later saw myself, McColleague and Lovely Warden standing amid the forlorn Nursery Rhyme exhibits wondering just where to start. We were quivering with excitement, this moment had been anticipated so eagerly for so long.

In the end McColleague kick-started things. Take that, Little Pig. We hate you and everything you stand for.

Then it was the turn of the Three Little Pigs' houses. What the Big Bad Wolf couldn't achieve Lovely Warden most certainly could. Huffing and puffing is all very well but opposable thumbs and an ability to fling bits of wood a very long way is what's needed to top the food chain. It was all as deeply satisfying as we'd imagined it would be.

All too soon we found we'd demolished the whole walk. Humpty, Little Miss Muffet, Snow White and the rest of the mutants had been uprooted and flung into the abyss. We'd closed off the steep stairs of doom down to the swamp of despair and re-routed the walk entirely. No more would families with pushchairs find themselves confounded by uneven steps and tricky gates. Toddlers would no longer have to negotiate nettles and clouds of mosquitoes on their way to be terrified by what looked like Eeyore, if he was made of plastic and been left on a hot radiator for too long. Now they could stroll contentedly through our nature meadow and on down to the bird hide. They could even buy a bag of bird seed to take with them to top up the bird feeders if they so chose. Not only had we improved the walk for nothing, we had found a way to generate a tiny bit of income while improving the visitor experience.

This was surely a triumph and would look good on my annual review. You could almost smell the bonus.